life-drawing without eraser-

NEW YEAR

2010-01-02T16:28:00.004+08:00

happy 2010~~!!
hopefully it will be a great year, a year with no regrets whatsoever -seems impossible though-
yesterday was quite wonderful for the first day of 2010,
went to church and spent the first day of 2010 with ppl that i really love.

and i suddenly got hooked with k-pop and here is my favorite song now, love rain by kim taewoo.

사랑했었던 어떤 이가 떠나간 적 있겠죠
모든게 내탓이란 생각이 든 적 있겠죠
나 그래서 잡지 못했죠

이런 아픔 쯤은 모두 잊을 수 있을거라
다른 사랑이 찾아올 거라 생각했었죠
왜 그런데 잊질 못하죠

그저 하늘 바라보며 외치죠 다시 한번 나를 사랑해줘
내맘 속 작은 바램이 비가 되어 내려오면

only a few lines of the song but i really like these lines -somehow-

2009-12-20T15:21:00.002+08:00

really want to watch snsd concert T.T

too bad i wont be able to go to korea to watch.

anyway, i'm home now, nothing much to do with quite slow internet connection ):

and result will be out in 2 days! dunno what to feel or expect =x

1011

2009-11-10T12:39:00.001+08:00

~~wish u were here~~

FoH

2009-10-25T12:47:00.002+08:00

signed up as front of house for an exxon show, PANJI, javanese mask dance.-it was a not-so-wise decision-.lol
i didnt expect a lot of people to come since it is a saturday show at UCC, however, it was a full house and many of them didnt manage to get the tickets.
"we are the performer's friends, we have booked the tickets, it is compulsory for our module and our prof told us to go, i was from sota and i am required to watch this" i was so pissed off with those statement..they keep saying the same thing over and over and over and over again..arghhh..how many times must i told them that we got the permission from the artists to release those tickets to public and we ran out of it alr!!
waste my time
haiz..life sucks.
its okay, its a unique experience for me.

new skin!

2009-10-18T21:32:00.002+08:00

spent my whole day finding a new skin for my blog, and here it is, a totally new look for my blog (:

2009-10-17T11:33:00.002+08:00

it has really been a long time since the last time i updated this blog.lol
life hasn't been very smooth lately.
i guess maybe i just dont have what it takes to do whatever that i want myself to do.
haiz..

-i am nobody after all-

uni life

2009-09-03T01:06:00.002+08:00

uni life
it has been okay so far, nth much happened, (or im just simply too lazy to list down the things that happened) xp
normal routine of lectures&tutorials.
-it is quite self-explanatory i guess-
it is really hard to get my brain to start working again after 8months of holiday.

-im just an ordinary human with my own imperfections-

frustrated

2009-06-10T01:12:00.002+08:00

went for medical check up today to check my back that has been hurting me for quite some time now.

and i found out that my back bones are unstable, and it is affecting my nerves.
and now i am not allowed to do any physically strenuous exercises
...
-how am i supposed to lose weight now- LOL

2009-06-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

I'M HOME

finally did sth useful today

swam with my sis (:
it was fun
and i just realized that i really miss my sis =x

insignificance

2009-05-30T10:29:00.009+08:00

2months have passed since my birthday and nothing really significant has happened in my life.
am i really that insignificant for u that u dont even bother to wish me happy birthday.
i have been spending my life slacking in front of my laptop, playing online games and watching dramas.
-boring-
the word that can really describe my life now.i have become really tired of slacking.LOL
i'm useless, no matter how hard i try, i will never be significant enough for u.
please give me sth to do.

2009-04-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

okay..STOP EMOing!! lol
overnight cycling and cycling with 07 were really fun..thanks peeps :)
had jap food buffet today and i was really bloated..
haiz..i am getting fatter.......
shall go on diet SOON.hahaha...

2009-04-07T00:16:00.000+08:00

i dun even know why do i write this post.
i feel lonely, very very lonely..
SMILE, that has always been my way of hiding it, putting up a fake smile, a happy face.
how long can that last? i never know..
i dun even understand who am i now. lost and alone
i am always scared, scared that i will lose everyone, scared that i will lose the friendship that i have forged.
(= that's life. =)

2009-03-14T20:15:00.002+08:00

....
i feel so empty
....
no purpose, nothing..
don't even dare to do whatever i want to do.

stuck.
everything is.

don't even have the confidence to pursue whatever i have interest in.
should i just give up here, let go of everything and just follow the crowd.

2009-02-24T19:52:00.002+08:00

down with running nose, inflamed throat and fever..haiz...
i think i'm dying here
i don't think i can wake up tml morning..haha..
anyway, teaching in TJ is better than my previous school:)
the students here are more attentive and they actually do their work..wow..i'm amazed..haha..
so, should i go to school tml?? =x

Vday!!!!

2009-02-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

Happy Vday!!

yeah, another vday has passed and this year i spent it listening to NTU talk.... and having dinner with my classmates.
NTU talk was quite interesting, but i dun really find it useful as i still can't decide which course that i will take. haiz.
why am i so indecisive..haha..
the dinner was fun, get to meet some of my classmates that i havent met for quite some time :)
haiz, still can't bring myself to say it,,

2009-01-31T08:12:00.002+08:00

My life is sooooo boring now.
Stone inside the staff room for more than 3hours everyday
and i have nothing to do after work but stoning again.
i even fell asleep in the staff room ytd. so paiseh.
haiz..

2009-01-04T00:08:00.004+08:00

i thought i was moving on but i was just running away

wish i could scream out loud

the end,,

2008-11-23T13:56:00.003+08:00

i hate endings, but sadly there is always one..
class chalet has ended and i suppose now is the time for my JC life to end..haiz..
it was beautiful, very sweet and memorable (:
(THANK YOU 07/07) -thank you for all the memories-
though i regret some of the things that i did and some that i failed to do..
haiz, IF only i can erase and re-draw some chapters of my life..

each of you are really special for me and i really wish to know everyone better..
(i really do, though i failed to do so in these 2years)

haiz..so sad that everything will have to end now..
i guess all i can do now is to tell myself 'no need to cry. smile. we'll meet again.' though i know that everything will feel different then (':
haiz,,i miss u all..

2008-10-16T12:06:00.002+08:00

can't concentrate,haiz..
spent the whole morning editing my blog and reading everyone's blog randomly
i suddenly miss pw :)
miss 07, i hope i can meet them soon..

why can't i stop thinking about her

2008-10-15T20:52:00.002+08:00

another day spent without doIng anything usefuL..
huh..
what's wrOng with me..why can't i concentrate..
only 18 days left before 'A'
why i don't haVe any motivation to study..haix...

last day....-in TJC-

2008-10-14T04:19:00.002+08:00

haha...
I tried my best to make it a special day..
nonetheless, i failed badly, sob,,
lose my mood halfway because of extremely stupid thing:(
sorry....
maybe I am just a loser afterall

move on...

2008-06-05T18:34:00.004+08:00

home sweet home ;p
it's been almost 2 months since my last post..
finally i have the time and the internet connection to blog..haha..

im going to move out of this house soon, (maybe next week)
i will miss this house badly..=(

JCT is coming,,but i dun have any mood to study now
still too preoccupied with so many unimportant stuff..haha,,

huh...so many things happenned today..
nevermind,,,
i must move on,,,,

-hopefully i can

2008-04-11T14:14:00.002+08:00

the long awaited PW result is out today...
woohoo...all the hardwork is not wasted...
so happy...
i got A..=)

mOviNg on.....

2008-04-11T14:08:00.003+08:00

huh...

tired...

moving on...

trUst

2008-03-10T22:36:00.003+08:00

'...TRUST...'

what does that suppose to mean??

what does it mean to trust someone??

huh...if only.....

sRy..

2008-03-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

I am sorry..

I am just simply not good enough..
I'll try to change..I will..

Promise...

*****!

2008-03-08T17:56:00.004+08:00

Yeahh...... March Holiday has started.. Not a good start though, I screwed my H3 physics test just now.. haix.. so disappointed.. I hope I still can pass the test(though it is very unlikely)..

I am going back to Indo today.. i dunno why but i'm not that excited..maybe i'm just still tired..this holiday really doesn't feel like one to me..lot of assignments need to be done and i also have to study for March Common Test (i hope i have the mood to do so)..

Today my class is having a class outing, quite sad that i can't join them.. They will eat B&J.. haix, i dun get to eat, sian sia.. can give me some?? i also participated in winning that voucher..hahas..

my life has been quite sucks lately(can't really share about the details)... I just hope that it will get better..

BWFO

2008-03-03T19:55:00.003+08:00

Hwah...so disappointed..Last Friday my class joined intra-house competition called BWFO (Big White Flying Object). It's actually a captain's ball/balloon competition. Our class get second and we won a $40 B&J voucher. It was quite fun initially. However, during the last match, the atmosphere was not very friendly and it was very controversial.. I dun really like it and yeah, i got quite pissed off in the end.. Nvm..

Yeaaa..last week of the term..hahaha...holiday is coming soon...However it won't really be a holiday since I have h3 test and March Progress Test..hope I can study and do well for these exams..

end...

The End??

2008-02-23T22:07:00.004+08:00

Huh.. finally, weekend..=)

I feel so tired but i dunno why. When I try to reflect, this week is actually not that busy afterall.. Just 2 SPAs (the questions are very expected) and a maths test.Then why do i feel so tired?? Maybe I'm just too lazy to go to school..haha..

My council term is ending soon.. Somehow it gets more tiring towards the end, with PT and mass dance practices..haix..the nomination of the next batch of SC is going to start very soon..I hope a lot of people will sign up=)

Made a poster this week, not really impressive. Maybe i could do better a lot better..

To all J1s and TA3s, join the 32nd SC.. "Challenge yourself, Leave a legacy":)

Yesterday i went to suntec to see the J1s doing the mass dance. A bit dissapointed though, they were only taught 3 mass dances by the SCIP and there was no Retarded..Anyway, move on to the positive part, they were very enthusiastic and they really enjoy the mass dance..

Hwah, this saturday is so boring..I really had nothing to do throughout the afternoon, just slacked and rot in my room..haix, so sad..

I started thinking about life lately, what is the purpose of our lives?Is it only to go through the normal cycle of life (born-study-work-die)???

Lazy....

2008-02-18T15:32:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog for so long..
life has been so hectic and tiring recently.
I have a lot of stuff to do, from studies, CCAs to some unimportant stuffs..haha..(but at least these unimportant stuff was quite fun)

I'm so sad and dissapointed with myself. I didn't do anything special for my girlfriend this year's valentine's day, i didn't even get to meet her :'(
I hope she's not dissapointed with me.

Anyway, I'm quite happy that my group won the intra-hostel captain's ball (although there are only 3 groups participating in this event;p )

I just completed my physics practical exam this afternoon. It was quite smooth and easy as we had done the experiment for so many times before (the teacher gave us 3 mock exam..haha..)

...my friend just call me and said that we are supposed to have a meeting...huh, i dunno anything about this before. i'm so sorry.. I guess i had made a lot of people dissapointed with me lately.. so sad..

There will be maths test this wednesday and chem practical exam this thursday and yet i dun have the willingness to at least open the notes.. huh..

finally..

2008-01-24T05:39:00.000+08:00

Finally..my firts post in 2008..haha..XP
haven't done anything useful lately...

...

2007-11-13T11:46:00.000+08:00

huh..5th day in indo and i still haven't done anything meaningful..
Still haven't meet my friends and my gf..
all i did was slacking..
I trieD to do econs (america's twin deficits), but, yeah.. cannot find any relevant sources for today, i got headache and i gave up.. i shall try again this afternoon..
woohoo..now i can play my ps2 again!!

boRed..=(

2007-11-11T10:32:00.000+08:00

huhh...im damn bored..really..
can't do anything that i want to do..
my pS2 spoiled..can't play..
dun have any basketball court nearby..damn sian..
anyway,sorry joN, i forget ur email..so i cannot send your photo now..

I'm hoMe......=)

2007-11-10T00:26:00.000+08:00

finally... hOme sweEt hoMe...=)
and i will be staying here for almost 2 months..cool..
i really regret checked in too early..my luggage came out last and I have to wait for about 1 hour for it..=( BORING...(thx dad for witing for me patiently;p)
i'm back..nothing really change in my house, except now i have no maid!!!wow..amazing..hehe..
cannot imagine how my life will change..haha..
anyway,07,hope we can keep in contact..=)

goInG hoMe...

2007-11-09T15:33:00.000+08:00

I'm going home 2day...=)
my flight is at 6pm and sadly i had nothing to do in the morning;p
so i went to the airport so early..11am..haha..so stupid..
and now, here i am writing another entry to kill time..2 more hours to go..=)
bye 07/07.. see u guys again next year..miss ya..haha..
and sorry if i did anything wrong..(trying to be emo..;p)
bYE.....

2007-11-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

8/11/2007

Went out with my frenz again..=)
watched bee movie, most of them think that it was sucks.. "BORING..." haha..
however i think it's okay lor..not that good, but still it was enjoyable n quite funny..
tml im going back indon...
can't wait..so excited..

to do..

2007-11-07T22:17:00.000+08:00

7/11/2007

the chalet has ended and now i have nothing to do..
it was damn tiring and i slept the whole day today, nothing to do..
although there are lots of hw, still, i have nothing to do..
miss my family n my gurlfriend, but nothing i can do..
i'm going back to indon this friday, gonna miss my lovely 07/07 friend, but nothing i can do..
so tired...now i know what to do..Sleep..

chalet

2007-11-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

7/11/2007

The chalEt ended.
It was so fun..i get to know more about people in my class and my class rawks..i will never forget this experience..=)
u guys are so interesting..
we were so tupid..trying so hard not to sleep throughout the night, but in the end we slept in the morning..haha..
guys, thanks for everything..i really love u guys..
-rest well..-
07/07 RockS!!!!!!

thE sTart

2007-11-03T10:28:00.000+08:00

finally i have a blog..
i am damn excited..=)